Wednesday, November 6, 2013

I AM

I AM: FROM FEMALESATAN'S BLOG

I am a stay at home mom (not true).

Who has five kids (is true).

Who dick rides men on the internet (not true but I like dick).

Who certain members at Circle talk shit about behind her back (prolly true)

Nobody respects (not true).

Who quit showing her tits at SIN because nobody wanted to see them (not true, Zach and others begged me on multiple occasions).

Attention whore (VERY true).

Drama Queen (True).

Cunt (also true).

Someone who uses petty personal attacks all the time (Yep).

Liar (absolutely).

Open Book (not true, I guarantee you know less than you think you do about me).

Is stupid (Not true. If I was I wouldn't still be here).

The point is this, I know what people say about me. I always have. If you think rehashing the same old shit about me is going to make me run away and cry in the corner, you are wrong.

So you don't like me as a person. Good, I didn't want you to. You hate me. I got under your skin for some reason. I reflected some concept you have trouble with handling. I stomped on your moral sensibilities. Whatever, you have decided to dismiss me based on who I am.

None of this common string of attacks I receive touches on WHY my ideas are bad. I wanted you to tell me what is wrong with my ideas, put them to scrutiny. You can't or you would have by now. The few that have put my ideas to the test, have earned my respect. The few who have made me think, have earned my respect.

I can guarantee if you are using ANY of the above to take a low blow at me, you aren't on my respect list.



What Versus Why

WHAT VERSUS WHY FROM FEMALESATAN'S BLOG

Who, what, when, where, why and how. When I was in school I had a teacher that said to process anything you need to be able to actually answer all of these questions. She always laid out tests this way. I do this whenever I am fooling around with a new idea.

When I look at the amount of writing about Satanism it's the what not the why. Now this sounds strange but think about it.

That's what we do, we discuss the what. Over and over again.

Some people misappropriate the What and think it's the why over and over again. It's where the softer version of Satanism comes from. Someone taking the what and making it the why.
They have misunderstood that all a writer can do is tell you what this is.

The why can be explained but it's incredibly difficult to understand without experience.

A great example is the doing meme. People will say they 'do' Satanism but the why can't be explained. They do it because they do goddammit. This makes that whole concept watered down and meaningless. Especially if the what isn't accurately understood either.

Who 'does' Satanism? What is 'doing' Satanism? When do you 'do' Satanism? Where do you 'do' Satanism? Why do you 'do' Satanism? How do you 'do' Satanism?

Answer the questions and get back to me.

Personal Anecdote Blog

PERSONAL ANECDOTE BLOG FROM FEMALESATAN'S BLOG

I was walking down the street one day and heard two guys called me some shitty ass names. I froze, my scared little bunny came out.

But they pulled into a subway real close by, maybe a hundred feet. I stood there and it hit me. Who are you really? Are you the kind of person that takes that? Are you going to take this? What are you going to do? Just walk off or stand up for yourself? How many times does someone say something like that and then pull into a place that close to you?

This was followed by going to worst case scenario in my mind. Will they beat me up? Maybe they'll shoot me if I confront them. What's the worst that could happen (answer everybody dies, every time)?

Go for it. Face it and see what happens, actually stand up for yourself.

So I walked up and wrote down their license plate number. Walked in the Subway.

I screamed, "Hey what you said to me isn't fucking cool! You need to apologize to me! I am a person!"

Everyone jumped including the sandwich artist. The turned around. Now at this point they were pretty fucking scary in my mind. What they really were was something else entirely. They were both teenagers, one of them was in a Cub Scout uniform, LOL.

They both started hurriedly apologizing. I told them I wasn't going to call the cops and left.

Now, I know this is a little silly but it wasn't to me. It was a defining moment in my life, a moment that I practically applied this shit I talk about. I stood up and I said something. I proved to me I was the kind of person that says something when I get fucked with like that.